Suicide- Want to kill yourself. What a dumb ass!

January 6, 2013 Old man speaks again on suicides! johnlewis1946@gmail.com

I was reading all the notes, messages and funnies on my face book page and came a cross one that stated post information as this kid wants to kill himself because of bully's not leaving him alone or making fun of him. Then I come across soldiers that are coming back from the middle east war zones and turning around and doing the same thing. Then I decided to read up on the past people that I suppose have more power than you or I. At lease they get the news, let's just talk. Wait then if you kill yourself you also get news for a day or two as well as the death column and some so called friend or family telling the story it was because of so and so and then it goes on to wherever it ends in a law of court or fades into the past.

Then I decided to see how bad a self killer is and you will be as surprised as I was when you read below my speech.

But, first I want to say to this twenty year old and would have sent a note but there was no place to send a note except to the poster of the message, and that is not getting to the brother so I will try to reach out to as many kids as possible as well as war vets as I am also one and believe it or not wanted to do myself in and almost did when I came back. Think the real reason I did not is because one of my best friends was killed and that hurt and still does when I think of it, and believe it or not it is daily. How many vets I will let you see that for yourself. But, teens now that is weird and damn stupid even. I can say this because I am headed for sixty-seven years old and believe it or not want to see if my kids, grand kids and great grand kids as well as ex wife and and friends can out live me.

Yes, I have been living on borrowed time as they say as I could have been killed instead of my friend back forty-five years ago. But, I have seen one kid in my family go because of medical reasons. I have also seen many friends go on and another just today and we grew up together and went to high school as well together. We took more risks than most kids do today, but back in my days the cops were really homer and the town like May berry. Hell we could all run down into the river bottoms and they the cops never wanted to get dirty or get lost and fall in the river. It was fun and even some cops today asked how we got away and where we hid and there retired now as I am as well as dying.

I get up each morning and let me tell you that I never know if I will or not or if I will make it though the day sometimes. But, each day I do awaken it is a real blessing to me to know that I get to see what is happening each and everyday all over the world. Look at all the deaths taking place around the world and the murders as I call them by our soldiers. After all we as soldiers are paid to do as the commander and chief directs as we have sworn an oath. Of course now the younger people are learning it is an oath at times that can not be followed as they know it's murder. But, some just like the idea of killing as that is one thing that goes though your head when you see a partner or friend killed, so you get angry and shoot everyone no matter who or age even. Never think for a minute that this is not true as it always has been in any and every war! This is the reason so many service people commit their own death because they know they did wrong and afraid to seek help. Hell I was spit upon and called a baby killer when I was going from southern California to Northern California. I was proud and glad to serve my country. But, then we were all kids and let me tell you 25 is still a kid as your told your fighting for something and go with whatever is told. Kids don't think as they are there for the money the roof and even a career. Now days it's for a job only because of this debt were in.

I can only say that there is no reason what so ever to take your life over being afraid of someone or scared of some punk or bully able to beat you up daily. If not a fighter then tell the coward to pick on someone that likes to fight as you don't. They see your afraid and that makes them queen shit on the throne. But, really by getting help is really talking to someone that is a friend or a family member that cares or anyone that you feel will discuss the problem with you and go with you to settle the situation anyway that is legally accepted. But, to kill yourself because someone takes your lunch money or personal stuff because they know they can. Never ever want to kill yourself. Why? Because then you will never get to meet people like me that was also picked on in school as well as even in work places because of my attitude. You kill yourself then what about all those people that don't know you and really do care for you and you will never meet because you felt the only way out was to leave this short lived world. Maybe your family don't care, OK, then reach out to someone that will care. You can't do that without saying hey I don't know you but can we talk. Maybe get a strange look as I always do but someone will end up being one of your friends one day. I met many people this way and I am picky as well, but will never let anyone down without searching for some type of help with someone that takes an interest. I know times are hard and people have little or nothing to live on. Hell I had to take a many hand me downs and once my mother even made me my own new shirt and I was so proud. But, that's another story one day.

So, you twenty and thirty years old and teens and even adult age but can't drink, but allowed to go to war and kill. Life is given once and you want to end it over some num-nuts that is really a coward themselves when you won't fight back. Parents or anyone in family won't help? Then seek others out and ask for help!

I no longer have parents or even grandparents now as they are all some place and I don't want to go where ever that is until I see my kids and grand kids as well as great grand kids make it first. Make it? I don't know what I mean by that because I see our country's debt so bad that majority of families will have to live together in order to make it. Most won't as everything has been given to them since welfare has made Americans really lazy!

But, if homeless there are shelters as well as many people take people in to help them get started and move on. Hell I myself have taken people in all my life as I know what it is like not to have some place to sleep or eat. I even now have three people here now that have no job or even income. No there not family either, but they met someone that knew someone and they ended up- here. Once they get to work then there expected to help others with food etc as well and move on as soon as possible. After all I live on a limited income as well and also may die any day then all these people will have to find another place any ways. So, in short they have kept me alive and they don't even know it.

There are thousands of people like me, all you need to do is search them out and leave messages. I am easy to contact, but my rules are worst than any hail, just keep that in mind. No drugs or drinking. If able to drink and smoke then you don't need a place to stay! But, killing yourself over lost of money, love life, bills never be paid, eviction, car taken or a punk ass pussy wanting to beat your ass if no reason to kill yourself.

You have spirits that protect you and they won't let nothing happen any more than you can take. This can mean your soul to some of Jesus or Buddha or God or whatever your beliefs. I am a believer in the spirits like the Indians, but they also have different beliefs all over the world as you know. then some have no beliefs and say life is just that life here and gone. But, why waste the limited time on earth to find out? Stay around and if your close and in need of a place and able to seek employment and not drinking or smoking then look me up as I am easy to find information on.



Suicide takes the lives of nearly 30,000 Americans every year.

Many who attempt suicide never seek professional care.

There are twice as many deaths due to suicide than HIV/AIDS.

Between 1952 and 1995, suicide in young adults nearly tripled.

Over half of all suicides occur in adult men, ages 25-65.

In the month prior to their suicide, 75% of elderly persons had visited a physician.

Suicide rates in the United States are highest in the spring.

Over half of all suicides are completed with a firearm.

For young people 15-24 years old, suicide is the third leading cause of death.

Suicide rates among the elderly are highest for those who are divorced or widowed.

80% of people that seek treatment for depression are treated successfully.

15% of those who are clinically depressed die by suicide.

There are an estimated 8 to 25 attempted suicides to 1 completion.

The highest suicide rate is among men over 85 years old: 65 per 100,000 persons.

1 in 65,000 children ages 10 to 14 commit suicide each year.

Substance abuse is a risk factor for suicide.

The strongest risk factor for suicide is depression.

By 2010, depression will be the #1 disability in the world. (World Health Organization)

In 2004, 32,439 people died by suicide. (CDC)

Suicide is the 11th leading cause of death in the U.S. (homicide is 15th). (CDC)

Suicide is the 3rd leading cause of death for 15- to 24-year-old Americans. (CDC)

It is estimated that there are at least 4.5 million survivors in this country. (AAS)

An average of one person dies by suicide every 16.2 minutes. (CDC, AAS)

There are four male suicides for every female suicide. (CDC, AAS)

Research has shown medications and therapy to be effective suicide prevention.

Suicide can be prevented through education and public awareness.

Last year SAVE educated 10,618 youth & parents on depression and suicide prevention.

Last year SAVE received 810 requests for information from 72 countries.

In 2004 it is estimated there were 811,000 suicide attempts in the US. (AAS)

There are three female suicide attempts for each male attempt. (CDC, AAS)

According to the Violent Death Reporting System, in 2004 73% of suicides also tested positive for at least one substance (alcohol, cocaine, heroin or marijuana).